Last August, I went on my first semi solo trip abroad. My trip consisted of two parts: Part 1, I went to Cancun, partied on my own and did touristy stuffs, Part 2, my boyfriend joined me in Mexico and together we took the bus to Tulum. It was a great trip; I had a mix of both. On the first part, I was able to make my own schedule and do activities that I enjoyed. On the second part, I had company and it was fun creating memories with someone else. I enjoyed myself a lot. I made new friends. I went to few parties with my hosts at Airbnb and danced to new songs. I saw Chichen Itza and visited a few cenotes. I biked Tulum with my boyfriend, and we visited historical sites. We discovered new drinks and dishes and realized how much Mexican food in our area is toned down.
This time I want to go to a new place but alone. I want to use this trip to learn about myself and also allow myself to loosen up a bit. I am a very self-conscious person. I always worry about what friends (and strangers) will think of my behavior. This has always prevented me from being spontaneous and act a little wild. I want to be able to enjoy activities without caring about what my people think of me. In my culture, you need to be constantly surrounded by friends and family. It is almost like a confirmation that you are a good person; if you were not such a good person, they would not want to spend time with you… I want to face my fear of being alone. I have lived most of my life in two places. I want to prove to myself that I can get around in other places, even if it is just to find food. Although, I was always attracted to different things (whether be visual arts, music or fashion), I always denied myself the pleasure of pursuing such activities because I was raised to conform to national culture. Everybody likes Adidas therefore, I should also buy and wear Adidas shoes, for example. Additionally, in my home country everybody thinks similarly. Whether your name is Stephanie or Carolyn, we all share the same worldview. In this time of my life, I want to be confronted with different logic and different perspectives, I want to grow from that challenge. I want to experience new things and hear new music. I want to meet people who think differently. Last but not least, I want to discover new dishes. I love to eat. I will not call myself a foodie, but I enjoy trying different dishes or different recipes. I want to find a new favorite cuisine. Traveling solo will allow me to relax and discover the real (or the new) me.
For three months now I have been researching travel deals and I found a few, but I was never able to finalize the purchase. I made up many excuses: I can find better deals at a later date, these dates are not good for my work schedule, I do not talk to my family so who will be my emergency contact etc.… Now, no more excuses. I have the fire to do it now. I need to travel and discover new horizons. And I should do it fast before the new U.S. president signs new travel bans.