Confessions of a Twenty-something

Confessions of a Twenty-something

I am in my late twenties. By now, I have accomplished a few things in my life that I am proud.  On the other hand, there are a few things that I could work more on.

  • I am very incompetent with make-up.  Media pushes for women to have pretty faces. However, I never learned to do more than basic concealer.
  • I am struggling to stay skinny.  Since I graduated from my undergrad studies, I have not been an active person.  I work in an office and take online classes from my masters degree.  Therefore, I spend countless hours sitting staring at a screen.  With such busy schedule I rarely find the time and energy to go to the gym.  In the past four years, I gained 30 pounds.
  • I do not think that I am sexy.  In my country, voluptuous women are attractive.  I have always been skinny, almost underweight, and therefore not the attractive type.  Moving to the U.S. was a culture shock.  Here skinny rhymes with sexy.  However, I cannot follow that trend because of the deeply rooted aesthetic ideas of my home country.
  • I cannot sound confident when talking.  I am an intelligent person.  Of course, I do not know or understand everything.  But I do strive to educate and comprehend more every day.  However, even when I know my topic in depth I cannot sound like I am sure of myself.  I always think that there is a super-genius who will refute everything that I say.  I could be a fear of making mistakes.
  • I do not know how to forgive & forget. I forgive, but I do not forget. I do not know how to let go of pain. I am afraid that I will not learn from past mistakes if I do not have the painful reminder of past events.

This list can go on, but I will stop there for now.


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